I masquerade as an extrovert.
But it’s just an act, a role played in pretend-land. Sooner or later, I’ll need to cocoon myself away for a bit to enjoy some silence.
I don’t think I’m alone, am I? Many creatives are introverts, preferring fewer words, fewer friends, and fewer parties.
Extroverts: we marvel at you. We marvel at your abilities to mingle at gatherings. We stand (preferably silently sequestered) amazed at your bombastic, never-ending ability to communicate with your host of friends while we struggle to maintain contact with the two or three friends in our close-knit circle. We’re jealous of your confidence in social situations.
I’m appreciative and bewildered by extroverts. Their behaviors are so far from my own that I wonder if we’re even from the same planet. At times, I feel like calling myself an introvert is merely an excuse to be cantankerous, picky, critical and fill in other negative words here. Truly, I have a lot to work on in these areas, but I’ve come to realize it’s part of who I am.
I AM AN INTROVERT (shouted from the mountain tops, then crawling under a rock to not be noticed).
Indeed, that’s what I enjoy about acting: I get to communicate and make connections in a way that doesn’t always feel safe socially.
This past weekend I was part of a fantastic event called Playgrounds: Theater on Site (plug: produced by the fine folks at Wood Stove House–like them here). It had been several months since I’d performed and several years since I’d been through a rehearsal process. Here’s what I learned…
- I’ve great respect for writers.
- I’ve great respect for patient directors.
- I’m impatient.
- I love performing.
- I love people.
- I want to perform and then go and hide.
It’s an odd phenomenon isn’t it? To be a performer, a teacher and an introvert? But I’m thankful for who I am, though I’ve much to learn from the extroverts. And though I’ll probalby never be an extrovert, I can marvel and learn… from a slight distance (insert wry smile here).
I stumbled across this graphic which encapsulates so much of what introverts experience.
Introverts: do you agree?
Extroverts: what do you think?
What about you? Are you an creative who’s an introvert or an extrovert? What have you learned about your strengths and weaknesses?